The real deal Edit.Β 

Wowzers… what a 5 weeks this has been. I’ve never known time to go quite so fast, I literally feel like we were in hospital like yesterday & already our little poppet rocket is 5 weeks old and 2lbs up (little chubster ❀️) 

Sleep has become a distant memory and the constant threat of a screaming sesh is the current reality. I don’t think anything at all could have prepared me (I don’t want to speak for Jamie) for what This felt like. It’s so hard to explain, from the minute you find out you’re pregnant you are living in fear… well…..When they arrive double that fear and then triple it…. Is that cry normal, why hasn’t she cried, she’s been asleep for ages, should we wake her up?! You get the drift! I now understand why my parents love me so much πŸ˜‚πŸ™Š

I don’t want to go into too much gory detail but basically the birth was savage! Being induced is basically a form of torture because you go through hell and then have to have a C Section anyway… lols on you! πŸ™„ urghhhh…All I will say is being induced sounds like a dream but it’s hard and a very lengthy process. I was in labour all in all for 16 hours, 16 hours of gas and air, waters being broken, an epidural and pain like no other & then after all that we hear “her heartbeat is dipping and she’s in distress so we need to decide what to do” to which we both shouted “GET HER OUT!!!!!!” After a very quick turnaround we’re in the operating theatre I’m shaking uncontrollably, as in my whole body won’t stop, Jamie is in tears (in fact we both were) it’s TERRIFYING! But then after a few uncomfy tugs and the ripping of skin 😷 I heard it! THE BEST noise I had ever heard… baby Ada having a little cry. (That same cry now frightens me πŸ˜‚) All 6lb 13 of her, she was a hairy little thing and covered in gross white stuff but I could tell she was a Babe straight away. πŸ˜‚ 

The next few hours were such a blur of cuddles, tears and unbelievable happiness. It’s truly amazing and since then not an actual minute has gone by where I haven’t felt so thankful for our little bundle. Well there was maybe 10 mins one Thursday where I wanted to leave her in the garage because she wouldn’t stop screaming but besides from that we’ve been all good.

Recovery from a Section however is nothing to joke about! It’s AWFUL you feel so rubbish, you have a catheter attached to you, you can’t stand up, you have to have a gross bed bath , you feel mingdog and don’t you dare try to cough or sneeze because you’ll basically feel like you’ve been stabbed and your insides are going to fall out! NO JOKE! Listen to this, the second night after she’s born Jamie had to go home. I couldn’t really stand and was walking doubled over HOWEVER! You are legit just left to fend for yourself with your baby. I have NEVER felt more scared and alone in my life. Ada and I were just in this hospital room on our own for the first time ever and I had no idea what to do. I fed her, she was sick it back up, I changed her, I cuddled her, I walked with her, I stayed up with her legit Allllll night & then when she finally settled (about 5 am) I went to get some water and what do I see!!!!! Literally 5 babies being looked after by the midwives …. wtf!! I asked what they were doing “oh, the mothers have asked us to take them whilst they catch up on some sleep?!” Oh right cool, have they? Brilliant, don’t worry about me dragging my own bag of wee along the floor, I’m cool! πŸ™„ Jheeze! 

Anyway as you can imagine come 9 am when Jamie walked into the room I burst into tears, he was my hero just for coming back! πŸ˜‚

Anyway, ever since then it’s been a dream! I can’t complain, she’s amazing. A little grizzly some days, a little constipated the next BUT she is 100% the cutest baby that ever existed soooo I can’t help but feel lucky. 

I’m going to leave it there for now as it’s 1 am on the 1st January 2017 and she’s finally fallen asleep so now I need too! I’ll update you with the rest of my life in a few days. 

Thanks for reading & Happy New Year! 

peace x


Oh my, that hurt Edit.Β 

Welcoming this babe… Ada Everly Williams to the world. 
Born on the 28th November 2016 @ 11.40 weighing 6lbs 13oz. 

I never fully appreciated when people said “you will never forget the moment you see your baby” WELL, now I do. It’s a feeling quite like no other. Just disbelief she’s here, an overwhelming sense of relief, love like NO OTHER & for me “ok that’s great, but can you sew my tummy back together now please… thanks!” 

I’ll obvs update with more new mummy posts in the coming weeks but for now I plan to cuddle, stare, keep checking she’s breathing, check again, stare and try to recover slowly! 

peace x

Mat Leave Edit.

So the time has come and I’m finally on MAT leave. Let me tell you its the most surreal feeling ever, I feel a little in limbo & a little lazy. I think you’ve been so programmed to working or having things to do it’s just very, very strange. I literally counted down hours until this time at the end, but it’s odd. You’re on your own, you know your life is about to change and you have absolutely no idea how and yet all you can think is…. “shit I really need to clean the light bulbs in the spare room?!” πŸ˜‚
I have cleaned all the windows inside and out, bleached my bloody front door, gutted the kitchen, bathrooms and every possible drawer of clutter, skirtings, light fitting & made a Christmas cake…. it’s been 6 days! Oh I’ve also had a manicure and got my brows done! Wtf am I supposed to do for the next possible 4 weeks?!

Everyone I speak to (especially my Mum) keeps telling me to rest and enjoy the laziness well you still can. Nap and watch TV, but you can’t just do that everyday I’m constantly so anxious, like “oh was that a contraction” or “has she moved today?!” 

Not only that but my waistline will not allow for another 4 weeks of sitting and binging on Scandal – Ive never had an appetite quite like it. πŸ™Š I’m eating quicker and more than Jamie at the moment & that’s no easy task πŸ˜‚

I’ve recently taken back to yoga – just super easy moves and a tiny bit of meditation, apparently you can breathe yourself into labour. πŸ€” Don’t worry I’m not going to start wearing clothes made of wheat and only eat things that have fallen from trees! But, I will try anything to make the next few weeks as bareable as possible! 

Anyway weekly catch up; 

Symptoms – Insommnia 😴 Averaging 4 hours a night & 58 pillows. I think Jamie may end up sleeping on an air bed soon. 😬

Also, aches and pains everywhere. Like I’ve done a super hard workout but I haven’t – I think it’s just the sheer weight of me now me legs have just given up. 

Bambino – Now I think she’s dropped. Last midwife I was measuring smaller than my weeks because she said her head was in my pelvis. Her movements are still there just a lot bigger I guess because she’s a fully grown baby that should just come now so we can meet her & stop taking up valuable room for her Mum! πŸ˜…

New Purchases – Ummmmmm…. people who know me know I’m a little bit of a shopaholic! So for me, I’ve purchased some new “I need these over the knee, flat boots to jazz up my post preggo wardrobe” & a “this coat will see me through the winter jamie, it can be oversized in the new year purchase” 

For babe – no new Purchases. We do need to get a monitor, sleep pod thing and of that pre made bottle ideal temp thingy OH & a baby bath seat! 

Weight – Ok , truth time. I’ve piled it on. I was sitting at a good 2 stone 2lbs up. Now I’m like entering Kardash town… oh gawd. I have bulked up – total weight gain 2 stone 8lbs. 😰it’s alright tho, I have gym trousers and tops on my Xmas list! 

Things I’m missing – Sleep & the normal thought process of a human without thinking “that was defo a contraction- this is it…..” or “I hope I don’t die in childbirth” 

that’s it from me…. peace x

The Shower Edit.Β 

            πŸ’› The baby shower of dreams πŸ’›

Contrary to popular belief I actually don’t really enjoy being centre of attention…& I much prefer to be the planner and host! So because of that I was actually super nervous about going to my own baby shower πŸ™Š not because I didn’t think I’d like it but all those people there just because I’m preggo was a bit surreal! I also think because we’ve wanted it for such a long time I’m so worried if I enjoy it too much something terrible will happen & it will all go wrong. That’s why I invited the Huzz along towards the end to take the pressure off πŸ˜… Luckily he came with Dad because he was extremely overwhelmed by the amount of women in the room πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

However, saying that I BLOODY loved it. My mum and best friends organised it for me and literally couldn’t have made it more perfect! It was boho, chic and full of cake! Everything was legit so amazing! From the little pictures everywhere to the cute games and also the pooy nappy game πŸ™ŠπŸ™ŠπŸ™ŠπŸ˜‚ Also my Mum with her magnum of prosecco was very well received πŸ‘πŸΌπŸΎ

It’s so lovely to have so many people in one place celebrating this little person that isn’t even here yet. Overwhelming didn’t cover it. We received so many gifts & I can safely say we liked all of them too! 

We decided not to open them at the shower, mainly because it was a bit crowded and TBH I was having so much fun talking to everyone I didn’t really want to pause from that. We opened them at home and let me tell you Jamie was in his bloody element he was poised with his spreadsheet open and up! πŸ˜‚

We actually had to split the presents over 2 evenings to take in everything we received. It was insane the amount we were given – Auntie Emma alone brought us literally a BUCKET of gifts! It’s unbelievable how much thought went in to the gifts we received too, every single thing was absolutely our taste & some we have absolutely no idea what it was…. aka… freezer rings?! I have googled – this is for teething! 😳Which is what I mean, who knew we needed this we didn’t. So thank you. 

So when it came to sorting the nursery yesterday evening that was just the most fun (stressful) time. The amount I faffed on where to put the baby vests VS the sleepsuits became a real debate. I think I lost Jamie when I suggested we rearranged the drawers for the 4th time. I’ll tell you what else is surreal when your house is full of baby clothes drying, everything is getting more real by the second!

I had planned to do all my baby washing  & hospital bag prep when I went on MAT leave however, I received some amazing advise at the shower which I will be 100% be taking. Take your MAT leave for you!  Don’t faff, don’t try and keep busy just sleep, chill and pamper yourself, because apparently I won’t get much of that time again. 😰 So that is exactly what I intend to do. Just the 6 more days to go πŸ˜¬πŸ’πŸΌ

It’s such an exciting time of our lives which is what I keep remembering when I’m awake at 3 am because I’m like Shamu the whale & cannot get comfy.

Anyway I’ve digressed a little. Just want to say again a huge massive thanks to my lovely wonderful friends and family for making me feel utterly spoilt & so loved! Also, if anyone needs any baby shower planners Mine we’re pretty good (one of them even comes with her own guillotine πŸ˜‚) 

Hurry up Williamo we’re ready to meet you now. 

peace x

The Body EditΒ 

I think the one thing people forget to tell you about being pregnant is how much your changing body surprises you. One day you’re walking around in your skinnies the next day you can only wear Lycra & joggers. πŸ™„

Now I absolutely appreciate that I’m growing a human and it’s amazing and it’s so clever (like legit still think it’s weird how there’s an actual person in there) BUT I wish I’d been more prepared about how I’d feel about my changing shape. Everyone I’ve spoken too about this seems to be the same, it’s just so HARD! I’ve always been someone who has watched my weight through massive binging to serious crash diets. So nothing could have prepared me for my MASSIVE boobs, the ongoing threat of an outie belly button & huge belly. (I can’t even sit up without like rolling back now πŸ‹) I’ve tried to keep up the exercise but it’s hard because you’re tired and feel grim, I’ve also tried to eat healthily throughout with the exception of an occasional *packet*biscuit. 

Having said all of this I have decided I have 5 weeks left and I am gonna enjoy the crap out of this experience! I have started to do a bit of “hurry this babe out yoga” and that’s made me feel great to actually stretch a bit. The scary thing is it’s going to come so quickly I’ll probably actually miss my bump & her rolling around sooo I’ve decided to be a bit kind to myself, chill out, take it easy and continue eating biscuits guilt free! (Because I’m gonna eat them anyway &&&& I’ve now taken to eating them dunked in Reeses spread #LTD) 

Onto babe though ; 

Symptoms – Not so many this week, I’ve been extremely tired and I’m getting new aches and crampy pains. But aside from that I’m all good! 

Weight – I’m still 2 stone 2 lbs! 

Bambino – She is moving LOADS she’s also totally in the pelvis and ready to come out now apparently! She also has hiccups about 15 times a day, which is cute! 

New Purchases – For me …. a stretchy midi dress just so I don’t feel like I’m constantly living in bloody leggings! For babe….. not so much! πŸ˜‚

What I’m missing – Let me set the scene…. Christmas tree, Home Alone, Mulled wine, BOURSIN & a massive tub of Camembert. 😬😬😬

Not a lot else from me this week… however I’ll have a special midweek Bumpdate from my amazing gorgeous baby shower.

peace x

The Nest Edit.Β 

Hallelujah hallelujah!!!!!!

It’s arrived! The Moses basket of dreams has arrived and Its simply amazing! 

We’re so happy with it, not only does it feel super cosy, it’s also so easy to move about, it matches our house and IMO looks cool as f*ck! 

TBH we didn’t really do a huge amount of research into wear she will sleep, we just knew we didn’t want her attached to our bed in one of those co-sleep things. Not because there’s anything wrong with it, we just wanted something we could move about in the house and take to the Grandparents if we (OR just bubba) go to stay πŸ™Š

However what we did notice when choosing Baskets is how bloody expensive they are, like genuinely her cot and basket has cost more than our bed and mattress and she isn’t even here yet! That’s why the extras of being able to take it places etc.. was super important to us. 

Just a tip for anyone wanting to order one, we had to wait 8 weeks! Wool Nest

On another Nest note…. Its started. The Nesting has started! Jamie thinks I’m going mental. I’ve reorganised kitchen cupboards, had the oven cleaned, cleaned the window ledges outside, at least thought about cleaning the actual windows & I mean I’ve even cleaned my car out! (I never do that!) although I have found 3 pairs of boots and 4 coats in the boot which I’d forgotten about! πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

All I seem to want to do is organise EVERYTHING! It’s so surreal as I’m normally such a control freak and I have absolutely no control over when she will be here! I just want to make sure everything that I have control of is done! Aka- I’m 95% done on Christmas shopping this year! Although, saying this I’m hoping she’ll arrive at midnight on the 27th and be nice and prompt like her parents! (Pleaseeeeee πŸ™πŸΌ) 

Anyway onto the babe; 

Symptoms – Dizziness & seeing spots. I think that’s just because I still can’t sleeeeeeeeep πŸ’€ I’ve also all of a sudden become quite emosh, again that may be because I’m so tired, I don’t cope with less than 10 hours at the best of times and I’m struggle city recently! At least when I’m having restless nights when she’s here it will be for a reason! Also. She’s really hurting me now when she moves….I guess it’s because she’s a heffalump now!

Weight – 2 stone 2lbs! Which in all fairness I’m totes coping with! I have started to do a few more squats and leg lifts this week though, just because I want to allow for the reeses peanut spread IM ADDICTED too! 

I also tried on my pre preggo jeans, I’m not sure why. I guess to make sure I hadn’t got like fat knees or something. But… phewsies they still fit πŸ™ŒπŸΌ (just not round my huge gut.. obvs) 

Bambino – As mentioned above she’s like a blummin’ gymnast in there! From like 3pm onwards she legit doesn’t stop and it HURTS! 

New Purchases – For the babe. No! For me. YES!!!! Pj’s & leggings, that’s about it! I don’t really want to buy anything now. We only have 5 weeks 6 days to go & considering I won’t be getting MAT pay I wanna conserve my cash for the Zara January sale! Oh no wait… I have brought some boots and a new dress for my baby shower next week! (That’s just needed though!!) 

Things I’m missing – I’m kinda getting used to the no booze, I’m even kinda living without the cheese (OMG should have mentioned – I don’t think she likes cheese and I’m devo’ed! Every time I eat it she like basically punches me!) what I’m actually missing is just being responsible for me. It’s kinda scary being the one person who has to look after her now she’s getting so big. I just want her here, safe and sound where Jamie can just cuddle her all the time. 

I think that’s about it from me… this week promises to be a good’un tho, I’ve got my Baby shower next weekend… eeeeeks! 

peace x

The Husband edit.Β 

Soooo this week we had our first visit from the Health Visitor – she came over and gave us “the red book” spoke to us about the after visits of labour and basically scared the crap out of us!! 😩 

So I thought maybe this week I’d pick Jamie’s brain and ask him for his POV on this growing a baby malarkey. No one really ever thinks about them, but it must be totally weird for the guy. You’re getting big and feeling kicks and he’s like “how are you eating so much?!??” 😰 so here’s a little Q&A for the papa to be; 

1. What has been the most exciting thing in the past 32 weeks

Hard to pin-point most exciting thing, probably between first finding out, the first scan or 20 week scan. However each one has been full of fear as well, when we found out it was ‘please be ok’, then same again before the first and 20 week scan. I’ll say 20 week scan as we announced her to the world and brought some cute little shoes πŸ‘Œ

2. What are you finding the hardest? 

I miss getting drunk with you but hardest thing is probably not worrying e.g. Every time you ring me, instant thought is panic and that’s something wrong. I think this will only get worse as we get closer to due date. Oh and keeping my own weight down, you and your bloody sausage rolls, chicky nugs and biscuits!!! 

3. What are you most scared of? 

A million and one things but the biggest one is being useless during the birth and after…I’m CLUELESS!!! So please bear with me, I’ll get there I’m sure. 

4. What are you most looking forward to? 

I’m just looking forward to our little baby girl arriving and I can’t wait for our visit little trip out, with us 3 and Ziggy.

5. What do you actually think of the bump

The Bump is incredible, been amazing watching you and the bump grow. The first kick was obviously amazing and so surreal. For some reason I still have to remind myself that there is actually a BABY in there! X 

6. Do you honestly think you’ve made me enough breakfasts in bed? 

Ha, cheeky! Probably not but the way you have marmite on toast is so peculiar and weird, it baffles me! I’ll make you a deal between now and the birth, you can have one breakfast in bed per week. 

7.Last one… Prediction time. Due date? 

Seeing as her mum loves the month of December so much I’m going for December 1st xxx

Thanks for the above Jimbob – don’t worry we’re both totally clueless BUT we’ve totally got this πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

Now for the weekly baby shiz; 

Symptoms – Back ache, my shoulder blades BURN 24 hours a day! I was actually ill at the beginning of the week too – fatigue is kicking my ass! I’m legit ready for bed come 12 o clock!   Also – my skin is really bad, I’m breaking out like mad! 😩

Weight – I’m 2 stone up again exactly! I have been walking daily still to try and and keep it down a little. I’ve also been trying to do some leg & bum exercises as my thighs legit look like cottage cheese BUT…. if I’m honest I literally cannot be bothered πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ I’d rather just eat a custard cream (we’ve moved on from chocolate digestives!) 

Bambino – So I’ve read from this point her movements are supposed to reduce a little because she’s such a chunk. Howevs, she’s moved more than ever this week, you can feel her actually tumbling around in there, it’s very strange. 

New Purchases – πŸ™ŠπŸ™ˆ Whopps more for me! I brought 2 extra large massive jumpers from Primark. I brought a size L and it’s in the pic below. They are dreamy & I can totally wear them after!  I also purchased some comfy socks for the hospital and some maternity pads (which is nice 😳) on that note I read an article this morning on going to the loo after birth… that was a delightful Sunday morning read! 😩

For bubba: I think we’ve finally narrowed down her leaving hospital outfit. It’s from H&M and blummin’ lovely. (Pics below) 

What I’m missing – Sleeeeeeep! I’ve had to pull a few all nighters on the sofa this week, I genuinely cannot get comfy until 7 am on a work day then I’m perfectly comfy and could sleep for hours πŸ™„ I did contemplate waking Jamie up to go downstairs but felt a little mean!! 😏

I think that’s it for this week, next week we have our first birthing class at the hospital which I cannot wait for & hopefully our bloody Moses basket will arrive! 

peace x